Loving Energy
Expanding and embracing every aspect of this life includes the willingness to be vulnerable and share our authentic selves with others. We are all unique expressions of universal energy and as a spark of that eternal energy I feel compelled to share an experience gifted to me back in 2013. I had noted the event in my journal the day it happened in an attempt to never forget the quality of the feeling, but then swiftly tore out the pages, fearing someone might read it and think I’d had some type of mental breakdown. Today, it doesn’t matter what other’s think. I know that I was given a gift. I no longer hide it from others. So here goes…
As part of a good self-care practice, I routinely booked monthly massages. This was an ordinary appointment. I arrived, disrobed and got comfortable on the table, looking forward to relaxing. Thirty minutes into the massage, I noticed, but not through a thought in my mind (there was just awareness), that I could no longer feel the weight of my body resting on the table. I was present, but not physically heavy. There was a sense of vastness, as if the boundary between myself and the rest of room was gone. I was present, but not confined to the body. There was a a welling up and expansion of energy in the chest, like an internal explosion of pure, unbounded, unconditional love. Moments later, there was an audible experience; a voice that could be heard and felt with my being, not with my ears. It was a soft spoken woman who gently whispered…“You are safe, you are loved.” There was another surge of unconditional love and then it was over. Twenty seconds of bliss. Tears streamed down the sides of my face as I lay on the table in disbelief. I looked at the massage therapist and said “did you hear her?” She said “I don’t know what just happened but it was beautiful.”
There are two things I know for sure…one, the experience was not in my mind, in fact, my mind was absent. There was no thinking involved, there was only receiving. Two, there is an abundant, loving, intelligent energy available to us all when we are willing to completely let go, of everything.
I commissioned an artist to paint a picture of what I imagined this voice would look like if she were materialized on earth and I keep this painting in my meditation space as a visual reference.
For many years, a daily mantra, prayer and affirmation that carried me through many challenging emotional experiences, was uttering the words communicated to in my heart…“You Are Safe. You Are Loved.”
As part of my daily practice of contemplative prayer and meditation, it has also been clearly communicated to me through that energy that… ”We Are Safe, We Are Loved, We Are Innately Worthy, and We Are Never Alone.” The gifts of Spirit are with us always, in all ways if we are willing to loosen our fearful grip and allow that energy to flow through us.
Please know that regardless of what has happened in your life; wherever you may find yourself now; and whatever the future may bring, that you too are Safe, Loved, Worthy and Never Alone.
With gratitude and grace,
MaryAnn
