Hide and Seek
Who Am I? What Am I? Where the hell did I go?
If you are asking these questions, join the club! And congrats, you’ve landed in the school yard.
When we start asking questions, the playground is in site. We may find that automatic answers start playing in our head. Old messages and labels answer back…“your not smart enough to play the game; no one wants to play with you; you’ll probably screw it up, so why bother trying.” These are survival responses. Maybe from childhood, but we can ask if they are true now. They are not life affirming and they keep us outside the fence, with no access to the universal playground.
Jump the fence
We can spend our lives living on the outside edges of the playground in the school parking lot. Adulting offers lots of distractions to keep us there, such as clinging to hollow successes and socially acceptable numbing; or conforming to the consensual indifference, that this is “just the way things are.”
Alternatively, we let the Shift hit the fan, decide we’re leaving the parking lot and heading to the playground, hollering…“F&ck being stuck!”
We are the only thing stopping us from jumping over the fence, onto the playground, and into the game. The game of finding us and living from there. We can invite her together, it’s more fun that way…we’ll encourage her to “Come out, come out, wherever you are.”
Know that she can hear you, and she is waiting for the invitation to come out and play.
Beginning Where We Are
We start exactly where we are. We look everywhere and questioning everything, because that’s how we get clues to our whereabouts. Just like kids on a playground, we’ll get really curious and ask questions like: ”Why do I believe that?” “Why do I do that?” “I’m not here, am I over there?” “Who the hell is asking all of these questions?”
This is the seeking process and if we’ve been hidden for years, there will be many questions. At times, we’ll need to remind ourselves to not be so serious…we’re playing a game. We’re mining for clues and there are no wrong answers, it’s all good feedback. It may be exhausting and emotional, but it’s not hard work, unless we tell ourselves that story and believe it. If we take the bait and believe the story we ar putting ourselves back on the outside of the fence. Game over.
Practice being the “Seeker”
You can play the game alone; but it takes longer to align energetically with your true Self if there’s no one else participating in your game who can validate and reflect your experiences.
If you are seeking, please don’t quit. You made it over the fence, so keep playing; keep asking and keep looking. If you’d like a companion, I’ll come along. I know the game well.
There are three simple rules to the game:
I: Awareness: Ask questions, Listen, Pay Attention
II: Authenticity: Align physically, mentally and energetically
III: Actualization: Live freely, creating from wholeness
With our authentic Self “tagged in,” we shift from an inner state of hyper-vigilance to one of allowing. Life is no longer endured or being done to us, we are playing a new game, and we make the rules on this universal playground. We create a life we are excited about from a place of wholeness and power, rather than lack and fear.
Interested in exploring joining the game?
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